I hate my seizure so much.?

I can't drive or even walk by myself.n Half the time when i'm home alone i cant even leave the house. It make me so angry. i cry out of angry. Man i wish they could go away right now. I'm 18 with these seizure, I can't do what my other brother can do. I can't even go to movie by myself. i haven't had one for 2 years. The only thing i wish they can go away. Seizure are holding me back, i can't really do much as other kids. like drive like my friend, and brother. i would of been driving 2 years ago. it kills me inside so much. When i see other people driving i get mad, because i cant drive.